effort used up in thinking of creative msg for the special someone...all wasted when i did sth tat i should not done..constantly in my heart and on my mind..even during my outing trip with mummy & daddy at vivo...i got u sth...but i am afraid even to talk to u...may not have the courage to give u the gift....in terms of facing problems, me this 16 going to be 17 year old gal has only one way to deal wif it...drip drip drip..a very bad way indeed...but i m constantly tempted to do tat...i keep certain stuffs to myself...not even to the special someone...been thru lots of thinkings this past few days, but i m not going to disclose it to anyone..all to myself...whether positive or negative...



hey world..again i m using the company's com to blog...quite evil huh?i had been taught to redeem a new rewards for the customer...HUAT reminded to tidy up my table when i end work today..coz the neat freak JUSTIN will be back to work tml...he won't want to see his table in a mess..hmmm..i had been reflecting myself lately...and i realised tat i m losing alot of things..FIRSTLY..time...ever since i worked, my timetable seems to be packed with work work work...i had lost time with my family...been feeling guilty...had spent some quality time with daddy this morning...had breakfast with him, and walked him home from the market before going off to work...and i seriously been lefting mummy out, not helping her do housework..etc...
had lost time with my loved ones as well...u know who u are...
as well as my frenz...no time for liying when she asked me out...
hmmm. i guess it's time to plan my time wisely...
anyway, i got my first paycheck..$180, for the 3 day job at expo...
was quite worthwhile to work afterall...
and more reflections on my behaviors..i had been a real bad gal this year...



this is a post for yesterday, 26th dec 06...CLIQUES STEAMBOAT GATHERING

was too tired yesterday to update, some more have to rest early for work today...tat's why this post was delayed...
we met at jurong east interchange..14 of us, without BELINDA catch NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM at entertainment centre... a real nice movie..very funny indeed...i strongly recommand u guys to watch it...we den waited for BELINDA to arrive at the mrt station when we started picking number tags to number our presents...i got no. 1, and when it was time to pick the no. of the present that we get, i got no. 1 again...i was asked to pick again when i got no. 11..which was SIEWGHIM'S no....was really fated with the number 1 den...
12 of us,excluding ANGELA, MEIHUI, WENSEE proceed on to marina bay den to have our steamboat at chong pang...satisfied indeed...had a great time eating...

will upload the pics when i had got them...

post for today...currently working...last minute called back to work...and i will hav to work as well for tml...and sunday is off day...is HARI RAYA...great...i will work from today till sat, and rest well for school reopen...



alright..christmas ended..juz ended..around half and hour ago...was hoping to witness the end of christmas with someone special, but didn't managed coz it was too late for me...caught THE HOLIDAYS earlier today...was the movie tat i was hoping to catch in the month of december...it was more than 2 hrs long...wasn't expecting it to be so long..it was a nice movie no doubt...a movie on LOVE...awww...kind of meaningful to catch it on christmas...i dunno why, i juz love that feeling...tomorrow...erm, no today..26th dec o6...is the CLIQUES GATHERING!!!wooo...i prepared some stuff for u guys..hehe...ANTICIPATE...looking forward...



MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

hey world...seen those tags?everyone's exchanging greetings..it's CHRISTMAS!!!!the season of joy!!!caught a movie after my work last night...CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER starring jay chou, chow yun fat, gong li..
daddy say the movie was like an R-ated show of the Tang Dynasty...and i totally agree...i didn't really enjoy the show, but i guess guys who watched it will...i seriously think tat the reason why gong li is the leading actress, is becoz she has big boobs...pardon me for saying this, but if u had seen the movie, u would have agreed with me...despite all these faults i found in the movie, i was totally amazed by the majestic setting in the movie, the amount of manpower, the amount of ju hua they had wasted...and of coz jay chou shuai look in the movie, and his love for his mother, gong li..there's a line in the movie when jay chou said to chow yun fat..
"Father, i dun stage this rebel for your throne, i rebel for mother..."
i was real touched when i heard this...the love for his mother...



hey world...i m currently using the com at rewards link...today's christmas eve..everyone's grumbling why there's still work today...errr..but i m not..coz makes no different for me..haha...hmmm...meeting someone for a movie later, after work...keke..beed ages since i last caught a movie..haha...it's time to enjoy now...hmmm...my collegues said tat there won't be alot of customers today..hope so...but apparently yes..coz if tat's not the case, i won't have the time to blog..haha..everyone's here is nice...very nice to me...wee chian said he wants to be my kor, and den keep calling me mei ever since...haha..got a real cute and chubby kor now...get jealous ppl... hmmm..i missed my juniors too..no doubt...any juniors who had got the camp pics, could u plz plz plz send them to me...thxx alot...AND AND AND..plz stop viewing the 4e2 clz video on youtube..it's so not suitable for public viewing...thx alot peeps...



hey world...i had not been watching triumph in the skies...the ending had not aroused any of my interest...but tat does not reduce my love for FRANCIS NG!!!!wooo...
juz returned from work at city hall...at THE ADELPHI where rewards link main branch is located...however tired i m, i will not forget to blog bout my work...everyone's been nice...except tat the air con is too cold...haha...today at work was rather slack...coz i waited for JONATHAN to arrive at work...so was slacking the whole morning...and there wasn't alot of customers so was quite slack today...made some mistakes at work today..made me so guilty..haix...buck up man...tml muz work harder...the pay was 50 bucks per day...work till 8 on fri and 6 on sat and sun...quite reasonable hor..haha..i love it...



help mummy wif cleaning up today...den mummy was saying...
"why my daughter today so guai ar?tonight going to strike lottery liao lor..."
wat the...i always guai de lor...
major power failure occur when i was watching my lovely samsoon...haix...sianz...no doubt the power regained a while later...
hmmm...went to imm at night..alone...got some christmas prezzies and cards for my cliques...ohh..CHRISTMAS!!!!i love it...the season of joy...but i m totally broke now...haix..shall work harder tml...to earn back wat i had spent...
starting work tml...ANTICIPATE...



hey world!!!i am back from badminton camp!!!juz slept for 4 hrs coz mummy drag me out of bed to help her run an errand...KNS

18th Dec
met soolin at the bus stop behind swiss, and headed to school...most of our juniors were already at canteen waiting for mr gan. after placing our bag at the PE store, den headed to hall for mr gan's welcome speech and training...was rather shocked when i saw jianan's sms...he's reaching school soon...and it's like only 8 plus in the morning...tat's like so rare lor...so unlike of him, was only expecting him to come at around lunch time..haha. after training, we had a horrible lunch which i barely touched it...coz there's curry...however the rest of the team enjoyed it..haha..den received a phone call from RAYMOND..imforming me to go to work this weekend..YES..finally got the job..haha, i guess i m real wierd...together with ms ng, the 3 of us (soolin jianan me) headed to west mall to buy some stuff for the bbq nite...when jian an kept prompting ms ng to buy alcohol...tat explains his big tummy..haha..ms ng bought some snacks for us at her own expenses...so nice..not forgetting a can of tuna specially for us for the breakfast on the second day..returned to swiss for the sparring session den dinner and bath...dinner was great...so much nicer den lunch...haha..den the girls had their games session when the 3 seniors helped out...3 of us plus xinyi bunked in in 4e2 classroom...my idea...haha...and the rest in 4e3 and 5n1 respectively...didn't really managed to zzz, coz the juniors in 5n1 were uberly active at night and it was freaking cold...

19th Dec
woke up at 9 when the girls are already in the hall playing games...had our breakfast in the canteen where jianan helped us spread tuna on our bread...kind of shocked...haha. when we reached the hall, the girls were already playing the TRUST FALL. kind of freaked me out when xiaoting fall from so high, and the girls didn't managed to catch her well, letting her fall on her back...the worse thing was, after she fell, she asked.."is my hair messy?"tat was like..haha...i dunno wat to say...after which, jian an and i went to help mr gan to set up the bbq pits...alll for my brilliant idea...haha..we got the pits in place...bbq night went on smoothly and we managed to finish all the food...badminton ppl got big appitite..haha..den we went on to play this PIG game taught by mr sashi...basically it is just heart attack, improvised. i nearly laugh my guts out...den it was the present exchange...i got jian an's prezzie...which i know wat it was coz we bought it tgt..haha...everi one enjoyed no doubt..
i guess we were too high tat we decided to TON the whole nite...was exchanging lame jokes in 4e3 clz room till 4 am when we heAD off to walk around in the school...NIGHT WALK...7 of us...XINYI XIAOTING YUXIN HAKIMAH JOLENE JIAN AN ME...swiss look real freaky at tat time...den back to 4e2 at ard 4.30 where i throw myself onto my 'KING SIZE BED' placed tgt using tables 4 by 3...woke up at 7 plus in the morning when mr gan came to us for a morning call...

20th Dec
breakfast followed by area cleaning..den home sweet home...went to eat at the hawker centre opp school...6 of us...YUXIN QIUMEI YILIN XIAOTING JIAN AN ME..jianan senior help me with the eggs like my dadddy...haha..i admit i am real bad at eating eggs...



hey world...i juz had the whole SATURDAY afternoon playing badminton and i am aching all over now...my butt, my thigh, my arms...
hmm..replies to taggies here...
BUDDY: sure, let's plan a time to meet before my school term starts next year..
BELINDA: STUPID SPIDER!!!!i realli miss u lor!!!hmmm...we could always go to NP open house to check out tgt
MELISSA: THX!!!u too...enjoy ur holidaes!!!meet up some day...
ANITA: wif u guys around, i won't be moody...uberly nice JUNIORS!!!
WEN JUAN JELLY: thx...and of coz i will do my best in everithing...esp BULLYING U!!!the jelly..hahaha...and i relinked u liao...
JOLENE: u got the brains too...ur brain is like a sponge...tat explains y u are SPONGEBOB JOLENE!!!haha...see u at camp tml...uberly cute junior!!!

spent my whole day on the sofa watching my love samsoon dvd...i so love her man!!!freaking funny...haha...anyway, i had got the present for the camp gift exchange..hehe..anticipate...

OFF TO CAMP TML....MISS ME EVERYONE!!!



ohhh..someone..plz take my heart away...take my soul as well...i can't stand it...buddy liying is leading her uberly xing fu life wif her baby azlin...**jealous**here i m, holding on to memories which will never come back...watever...
alrite, mummy is finally feeling proud tat her only daughter, is able to enter firx 3 months jc, somemore i got into AJC...she had been having auntie talks wif her frenz, and they were like..."WAH!!!AJC WOR...good school sia!!"but here's where i m pressurised...wat if, after o'level results are released, i can't continue in AJC..?i know, it will be a very big setback for me...i won't know wat to do den...haix...
somehow, i dun wish to maintain my good image...i should dress more sloppily, and not be so conscious about my looks, it's not very fun to have ppl who wants to be your frenz coz u look good..i hate tat..I REALLY HATE TAT!!!



我真的好累。。。
好没有心情。。。



alright world...i m real high today...yes i am...at 8.05 am, when i logged on to the PAE webbie...i got wat i really want...
ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE SCIENCE!!!!
yupx..i could not really tell u how i feel now...coz it's hard...but at the same time i am not feeling real good...
ppl...wat is sex?wat is sexual needs...?i really duno...
frankly speaking,whatever i had heard yesterday is making me rather upset...i m facing a rather big decision now...i'm realli realli upset...i m not getting everything i want...(erm..i dun mean sex here)...will i really be happy in AJC?i dunno..the absence of ____ in my life is had indeed made a big impact on me...nth much to say here...real moody now...haix..

anyway juz got back from town wif my juniors...ANITA JOLENE WENJUAN...uber cute juniors...love them...



hey world...new blog skin!!!nice rite?nice rite?ya..i know it is..haha..awww..so red...lovely red sky..haha..not gonna change it unless i find a nicer RED one..haha...anyway ppl...plz plz plz...dun go and watch open season...IT"S FREAKING BORING!!!!!it's the most draggy animation i had ever seen...i nearly fell asleep..haha



hey world...did u catch star awards?no no no...i should say, did u guys see FRANCIS NG on star awards???SHI SHUAI DE LOR...HAHAHA...OMG OMG OMG...i'm so freaking in love with old man...haha...so?i like it leh...hahah...but y he didn't give out the award for top 10 female artists?den i can see him longer on tv lor...wat the...haix...so sad...WHY JULIAN HEE NEVER GET TOP 10?!?!WHY CHEN WEI LIAN GET TOP 10?!?!wat the...

hmmm...going back to training tml...i realli miss my juniors man...it seems to be ages since i last played badminton...erm...1 week?i guess so...i juz know i am losing my physical...i can't run...DIE...haix...sian la...die for sure when i enter jc...



hey peeps...i've been having a a crazy idea...hmmm...supposingly, i am so lucky to get 6 for o's,after minusing 4 bonus points for my cca and my higher chinese...i am left with 2.after getting my da ge's cash reward, i choose to go to ngee ann poly and study business & accountancy....hmmm...how's tat?i guess i will be the lowest intake for NP's BA next year..haha...ok...it's only an idea..haha...i think too much be..haha



hmmm...caught a movie alone today..kind of new experience...pretty cool...spent some time Boo-Hoo-ing before the movie started, went to the library after tat to continue reading my FRIDA KAHLO, again i Boo-Hoo-ed, the man sitting beside me muz hv thought tat i was crazy...whatever...on the way home on the mrt, started Boo-Hoo-ing again...okay i admit it has became part of my life...no wonder ppl say women are made up of water...quite true...i guess i was juz too emo...i can't seems to control myself...to much things happened on me and i seemed to be casted out of the situation, i dunno wat's gonna happen..i m juz too afraid to think, i dun have an answer, he avoids it, wat can i do?no one is there to talk to, makes me dun feel like talking again even though i had regained a bit of my voice...no drive to move on...nothing to do at all...i really dunno how long more i could survive this holiday, am i really happy now? i dunno...I HATE HAPPY FEET!!!



haix...so sian...i m still not speaking a word...OMG!!!wat's gonna happen to me?my voice?
hmmm...spend my whole evening at the park emo-ing...had not been feeling good..not at all...passer-bys muz been wondering wat happened to me...looks as if been robbed or wat...haha,hmmm...sth like tat,been robbed off the rights to love...hehe joking... i'm juz feeling very depressed, nth to do, so wander outside lor...haix...give me sth to do, so tat i won't let my mind wander...



things are not going well after the chalet...i m totally voice-less...i'm losing confidence in myself and him...i'm not aware of many things, he chooses to hide...i guessed i would never know. really had enough of this guessing games, but i guess he enjoyed it..i had no one to talk to, even if there is, even if there is someone' I CAN'T TALK!!!...WTF...now den i realize why ppl get depression...i seemed to be getting it as well...confined in my own room, specifically on my bed, been rotting there since after breakfast, been feeding on the same food--congee..it's the worse food i ever had...who says patient muz eat congee?tat sux lor...was thinking to catch a movie, tat's not going smooth for me as well...thinking of catching A BATTLE OF WITS...WTH..it's M18...SAW 3 is worse lor, it's R21...and how could i possibly catch HAPPY FEET when i am not happy at all?the rest of the horror shows doesn't screen at lot 1...WTF...continue to rot ba...haix...



hey world...i m back from chalet with my cliques...i know u guys miss me..haha...firx thing on the list...SLEEP...i juz finish an 8 hr chess game wif ZHOU GONG...get it?i juz woke up from an 8 hr nap...everything went smoothly at the chalet except tat i was down wif sore throat...they (my cliques) commented tat my voice was freaking sexy when we were having dinner on the second nite...ok...thx...i take tat as a compliment...hmmm...but now...i m speech-less...i mean, i lost my voice...whoever tat needs to contact me,plz dun call me,or u won't hear any reply...haha...i realized this chalet was very well organised...perhaps a smaller group is easier to control...special thx to LEE & her bf who helped us checked in on the firx night, SIEW GHIM & JOO, who had planned everything, CINDY, who made everything seems so interesting, WENSEE, who was always bullied by cindy, but her reaction is always so funny, never failed to make us laugh, PEIYU, who carries the seemed-to-be least bulkiest bag, and leave me wondering why mine was so big, KATHERINE, who was always there for me to suan....haha & MEIHUI,who left us ur toothpaste, although i think no one used it..haha...JINGSHI, JESSICA, ANGELA, MELISSA who made it down to pasir ris despite their busy schedule...erm ppl, i m trying to upload the pics we took, and belief me, i will put little JOO's photo here at my blog, or as my msn display pic, anticipate peeps...



hey ppl..i'm back from my busy scheldue...from work...i'm missing raymond, yong huat, jonathan & eng hao already...the kor kors i got to know at work...they are very helpful...nice ppl there...haha...felt really sick ytd and raymond let me go home early...thx alot...freaking feverish...luckily i managed to recover in time, so as not to miss the chalet later....meeting soolin for lunch later...sweet gal...help me prepare shampoo, toothpaste & shower gel...thx again..haha...juniors...i will go back to badminton training, and will go for the camp...dun miss mi too much.,..hahabut indeed i moiss my cute juniors..haha