OMFG!!!
the anxiety of waiting, is not a good feeling at all...
i hate waiting...lots of stuff...the no.1 on the list is my o's results...when is MOE going to tell us the date for our results to be released???haix...i want to pon school!!!now den i realised how tired i am,i was sitting on the bed juz now reading my gp assignment, and i juz dozed off like tat..in a sitting position...and i slept for almost 2 hr, before i woke up...MY MY...tml is again badminton training...haix...the long hours of wait again...
the extreme guilt i had after reading her blog...mixed feelings in me....she is in such a horrible state, am i really in the wrong?if he's the murderer den i am the accomplice...killing her slowly, watching her suffer...
i felt sick, both physically and emotionally...
I MISS CINDY!!!MISS HER LOTS!!!the one who never failed to cheer me up...saw her today...realli happy to see her...even for a short moment...



the week isn't tat bad when u know that someone will be there for u...
it had almost been 1 month at AJC, and i m starting to feel more attached to the school...even more after i wore AJC uniform to school yesterday...it will be around 3 weeks to my birthday, and perhaps 2 weeks to the release of o's results...time flies...
the C & B gals are having their tournoments...best of luck to them, and so sorry tat i can't make it there to support them...missing u guys...behind u gals all the way...!!!



NO LIFE!!!TOTALLY NO LIFE!!!
my goodness!!!jc's life was so-so...had to work on weekend which made my life so dull...
in ECONOMICS term...
the opportunity cost of earning $1oo per weekend is the lost of satisfaction of hanging out with my loved ones...
i missed out today's training at swiss, losing the chance to check out on my juniors, and to catch up with soo lin...I MISS THEM!!!
same procedures at work, but today's work were more tiring...my body was aching all over...side effects from the gym trip at school yesterday...after a 20-min run on the machine, and some 4omins on some other devices.went for the ajc badminton trial...qualified for the second trial,if i didn't get into the team, my life will be even duller...a world without badminton...how good can it get?
after a shopping trip with mummy today, i realised how much time i had missed out with her...so sorry...haix...not been a good gal...i m going to quit..real soon...my job is making me lose alot of time...made me so no life..haixx..



random day at work...but i am not feeling random like any other day...why do i like to ask questions so much..???that lands me into this situation i am facing now...CURIOSITY KILLS THE CAT...i do agree now...been ignored again...i deserved it...SORRY..SORRY...SORRY...this will really teach me to shut up,whenever i am not suppose to speak up...
on the way to work, saw JUSTIN & KELLY ahead of me...they look uberly sweet...was listening to KISS GOODBYE den...and i burst into tears again...feeling depressed the whole morning...and currently i am very hungry...and i am craving for chocolates...heard tat eating chocolates will help brighten up a girl's day, and will cure mood swing...i guess i need them...desperately...

this is a pic of my work desk...like how i planned before holidays ended-study on weekdays and work on weekends, i am back to rewards link counter 1. the working procedures, my colllegues were still the same, except that for today, i saw a big crowd which i had never expected to see...all of us were released late, no doubt i were still the first one to leave..hehe...collegue mohamad kept scolding the 4-letter-word as he was supposed to meet his beloved gf after work for movies...poor him...

anyway, thx all peeps for leaving those caring tags on my tag board...i dunno whether my mood is becoming any better, i juz know tat i am feeling ups and downs...both good and bad...sobbs...

the one i had been praying for had been ignoring...no one's been caring...i just dun feel like saying anything to anyone other than him...i prefer to keep it to myself...



today been a bad day...a bad start for the term...nothing's been right from the start of the day...been real exhausted -- mentally, physically, financially, esp EMOTIONALLY...
horrible day...became worse when i came across to an sms which i was deeply affected by the details...
wat's wrong wif her?/I DUNNO
wat's a trouble of a clinic asst going to the doctors herself?/I FLARED UP!!!
...
more qns...
i'm sick too, but tat's not the concern i got...why?/I FELT LIKE CRUSHING THE PHONE!!
i hate jc!!!can i juz transfer to poly, now, right at this moment?/I FELT LIKE RUSHING OUT OF AJC's SCHOOL GATE

after all these thoughts, i replied in the most sarcastic manner ever...and it's time to leave aj for home...tat moment, i really dun feel like stepping into the school again...i juz hoped tat i could juz walk in the rain...forever...i felt so bad...seriously...

i had been losing things...my loved ones, i juz feel tat, dun ask mi why...can't help but to do what i will usually do when i face problems...



RESOLUTIONS...

ps:this should had been posted earlier...but i had been a bit slow..so...hehe

1. better time management
2. find a better way to solve problems...CRYING
3. try to focus better in class
4. more time for my loved ones
5. tidy up my room!!!!
6. learn to listen more, be more patient with ppl around me

school's starting tml...a new enviornment...hope i adapt well...no doubt it will be hard to wake up at 5.30 every morning for school...but i will try...

ANTICIPATE



hey world...how did u countdown to year 2oo7?mine was so spent well...went overnight at KAMARUL's house with QIU MIAO UZAIR HK ISMAIL and gang...had a bbq tat night,when QIUMIAO had a great time peeling prawn shells...haha...went on to watch some dvds,one of which was BORAT, a R21 movie...kind of disturbing, not a nice movie at all...gave up watching halfway...dragged our way till 5 am in the morning when the guys and the gals went to seperate rooms to sleep...QIUMIAO & I stationed in KAMARUL's room...when we started rummaging his stuffs...we slept at 7 am and woke up at 8 to rush down to bedok for a badminton session...i didn't know wat i was doing den...almost slept my way thru the session...headed back to KAMARUL's house for second round of bbq when HK & I left first as mummy called to yell at me...TOUCHED...he sacrifies his food to accompany me home...haha...den i slept all the way till 10 pm when mummy returned home from work to wake me up....

half of me, half of u...










you had been missed!!!