been having several train of thoughts "choo-choo-ing" around in my pea-sized brain.


1. "Am i really cut out for this 2-year A-level course?"
i wonder why i chose to further my studies in a JC after O's. i guess the whole year of brain-washing from da-ge and mama works. they kept enforcing that poly is a no-NO.
these two weeks back in school after the short break is killing me.having to wake up again at 6 is so against my own will. and almost everyday in tutorial, s27 will bug our tutor to initiate a sharing session of stories instead of lessons, with the same not-in-the-mood excuse. i like that actually, coming to class, doing nothing but to slack. Is this sustainable?i wonder. everyday, coming to school planning where to hang out to waste my life after school and the alternative will not be to do some revision, but instead to take long afternoon naps which i usually dun like to. slacking in lessons drains out more energy than anything else.i wonder why. which means i now spent more than half of my day sleeping.imagine the opportunity cost incurred. am i really going to carry on with life like that and smoke my way through A's, and get straight Es?

2. "What is the promotional exam for?"
is it true that promos is a good gauge for how we will perform for A's? Or is it juz another obstacle, set my MOE, to wipe out 1/5 of the cohort? Or is it because the school love us too much and wants to keep us in school for another year? seeing classmates withdrawing is not a good feeling. having kept in suspense and hearing remarks like "prepare tissue papers" and "your class did very badly", is not a good feeling. Pioneers are getting all our results back on next tuesday....fingers crossed

bird's eye view of my messy room....